Today was a good day.
Today I was able to celebrate.
I have struggled with celebration lately.
Pain does strange things to the mind, and I have, for the better part of the last 10 years, dealt with pain on a daily basis. Please don't feel sorry for me. There have been many lessons in the pain. Sometimes, though - okay, a lot of times, I am begging for relief. Praying for deliverance. The past 4 weeks have been prayers like that.
I told my dad, and a few friends, that I didn't think the "Trinity" and I were on speaking terms lately. I said this jokingly, but felt it deep inside. I am still feeling it.
However, today, I heard a whisper. "I am enough."
"I died for you."
"I am here. Even when you don't feel me. I am here."
So tonight, as I ready for sleep, He is enough.
I want to be able to look back, in the not-too-distant future, and be able to say....
See what God did? He brought me back to HIM.
He hasn't moved.
Shout for joy to God all the earth!
Sing the glory of His name; give Him glorious praise!
Say to God, "How awesome are our deeds!
So great is our power hat your enemies come cringing to you.
All the ends of the earth worship you and sing praises to you;
they sing praise to your name."
Come and see what God has done:
He is awesome in His deeds toward the children of man.
He turned the sea into dry land;
they passed through the river on foot.
There did we rejoice in Him who rules by His might forever,
whose eyes keep watch on all the nations -
let not the rebellious exalt themselves.
Bless our God, O people;
let the sound of His praise be heard,
who has kept our soul among the living, who has not let our feet slip.
For you, Oh God have tested us; you have tired us as silver is tried.
You have brought us into the net; you have laid a crushing burden on our backs; you let men ride over our heads.
We went through fire and water, yet you have brought us into a place of abundance.
Come and listen, all you who fear God;
let me tell you what He has done for me.
Psalm 66:1-12,18